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[14 Nov 2007|09:29pm] |
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there were four students at the board meeting, and there was even a comment that the atmosphere was much less argumentative than last week because there wasn't as much dissent.
They voted against Allen Gilbert's motion to postpone the decision, despite my warnings of what the reactions of the student body would be.
They voted for semesters starting next year (did people really think that would happen? Did we think our anger would compute? Did we think four outnumbered students could represent the anger and frustration of the whole student body?).
Yeah, I'm pissed. I'm very pissed. I'm pissed that NOBODY mentioned that students were studying for exams. I'm pissed that the climate of the school was mentioned by only one person. I'm pissed I was one of only four students there.
What I will suggest is going to be an extreme process, but I believe that the only way we will get this to change (yes, it is still possible) is to a) successfully get them to readdress the issue with another petition and any other desperate means we can think of, and b) get at minimum 100 students to attend the board meeting: enough to make them move to a different room (organize it, put up posters, create a facebook group, organize carpooling, talk to teachers in favor about homework).
If we don't feel it's worth that, I don't think our anger is truly justified, because this isn't just about the issue of trimester/semester schedules. The issue is about the importance of the opinions of the student body. If we aren't willing to collectively devote one night to this issue, and to do what it takes to get that one night, we shouldn't even be discussing a walkout (which would have absolutely no effect. They would probably say they can't respond to that, and let's face it, they shouldn't give in to that kind of tactic).
Obviously, if step a is not possible, most of this post is moot.
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[10 Aug 2007|07:52am] |
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I'm going to a Jamfest with my dad this weekend near NYC so I'll be gone and back late sunday night. I'm pretty psyched. And no, it has nothing to do with jam.
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| Deathly Hallows Predictions |
[15 Jul 2007|10:42am] |
Yeah, I'm writing this down now so I will be able to gloat when I'm right and laugh when I'm wrong. It's subject to change until I actually read the book. This will be a very long post, and it will be only Harry Potter predictions, so if you're not interested there's no point in reading any further.
( Theories )
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[03 Mar 2007|07:20pm] |
Beware of sadness
It can hit you
It can hurt you
Make you sore, and what is more
That is not what we are here for.
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[15 Feb 2007|03:37pm] |
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one of the top ten snowstorms in vermont... ever.
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[11 Nov 2006|11:53pm] |
It's hard when my mom tells me about her days in her bed thinking about the life she used to have that her family is still living. It's hard when she tells me how lonely she is all day, and when I get home she doesn't see me that much. It's hard to tell her that I have to do homework, and I'm exhausted and need to just relax with my music. How can I say that it's not running away from her pain, that all adolescents start distancing themselves from their parents?
She got a TV for her room about a week ago. It's hard to accept that she's not going to recover in a few weeks, months, years. She might never be better. She refuses to go to a pain clinic, where they show you how to ignore and deal with pain. That's where you go when there's nothing else they can do.
She told me that she was really looking forward to having teenage daughters, being involved. She told me that it hurts when my dad takes us out shopping. She hates it when christmas comes because she always has to be in bed upstairs, and every christmas she remembers how long it's been. This christmas will be the fourth.
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[28 Aug 2006|05:38pm] |
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Today was way better than I thought it would be. My INCISION (hehehe) only gave me greif after 3rd band, which is amazing, cause in the past the only time I went without an ice pack was when I was lying on the couch. i.e. not walking.
Still, I think that this whole carrying binders/ice pack/water bottle will get old fast. My backpack is emitting foul odors, so today I had a weird little hiking one. It should be cleaned out by Wednesday though.
I think I need to say a bit about my home life. And this is CONFIDENTIAL INFORMATION, don't tell or you die, etc. Cause some of the people involved I don't think would appreciate that people they don't know know some of this, just cause it shouldn't be generally known. It's not as bad as I just made it sound.
My sister is in a really bad depression. My family is starting to get really worried about her. She's antisocial to the point where she has, literally, no friends. She's often belligerant. She's very difficult to live with, because she either has issues controlling herself, or she has so much anger buildup that it is impossible to. Last spring she threw rocks at my head because she thought I implied she was fat. That sort of thing. She's incredibly sensitive to anything anyone says to her. If my dad tells her she did anything wrong, even making it clear that it's constructive criticism, she hangs her head. At the same time, my mom is also incredibly sensitive, and Mariah says really mean things to her designed to take advantage of this.
The reason I'm telling you this is because sometimes I need to vent to someone other than my dad, cause he's dealing with the same problem, and because I'm starting to get worried. I understand very little about depression. I only know what it is from things my mom has described to me, but I can never understand unless I've gone through it. So sometimes it's hard for me to react. Do I let it go when she makes my mom cry for no reason and then needs to be told to apologize? It's hard for me to watch my mom get hurt so much, and then let her deal with it because she's the only one who understands. As you've probably figured out, other people's emotional ups and downs affect me a lot more than I think they should. Today was a difficult time for this problem, so I just need to vent, and I think that telling you about this will be more helpful to me than hurtful to Mariah and my mom.
Writing this, I've calmed down a lot about it.
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[27 Aug 2006|12:30pm] |
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I am back from l'hopital. I've actually been back since friday but I didn't really want to be on the computer. The scar is all the way across my stomach- I think it's about 10 inches. And it's doubtful whether I'll be at school tomorrow cause it's still a bit painful to walk, and I get tired really fast. Soooo we'll see. I really want to go though, I'm sick of sitting in my house and I miss people. They did NOT take out my appendix as I had thought, they didn't have the chance. The surgery only lasted an hour when they thought it would take two, so they just quit while they were ahead. I don't mind.
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[11 Aug 2006|07:00pm] |
Guess what guys
you never will so I'll tell you
I am now a certified lifeguard. WOOT!
After four multiple choice tests (actually five cause I failed one of them) I am CPR certified, First Aid certified, and a lifeguard. I get to watch people have a fun time swimming while I stand with my big red lifeguard tube in the freezing wind/scorching sun. And treat wounds that make me want to vomit just looking at them.
They even have masks for CPR to prevent disease transmission (and lip-to-lip contact).
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| An update on the Life of Alison |
[04 Jul 2006|06:58pm] |
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Soooo my mom and my dad are going to Boston this weekend to pick up my sister... on friday night they're staying there. And I'm probably staying with my aunt, but my mom hinted that it's ok for me to sleep over at a friend's house. So if anyone wants to, I'm most certainly free on friday night. Just I can't if you have a cat/dog/moose that goes into your room like... ever. So it actually working out is not very probable. Which is fine. 229 2016 or alison_the_chicken@yahoo.com.
Okie dokie?
I saw Sara and Anna briefly yesterday. Which made me very happy cause I'm starting to miss a lot of people.
3 more days to the end of the 1st session at LLC, and the end of my lovely time with the ten year olds. I hope I like the next age group I get put with. I do I do I do!
And guess what! I don't have any crushes at the moment! Camp has basically taken up my entire social life! I am so so happy about this, because I don't really want any "boy action" at this point. My schedule is really merciless.
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[01 Jul 2006|10:45am] |
Holy crap
I am
IN LOVE
with ten year olds.
They make me feel energetic, and positive, and very very overprotective, as I found out when there was lightening and I was in a boat.
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[24 Jun 2006|12:46pm] |
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My sister just left for Outward Bound. It's quite a rigorous camp hiking type thing that lasts for 2 weeks. I think she'll have fun and hopefully will learn a bit more responsibility for chores.
I have mixed feelings. On one hand, she and I rarely get along. Usually by the time I get home I'm so exhausted I can't stand her constant chatter, and being stuck in the car with the hyperness in the morning when I want to be asleep is not fun. On the other hand, I'll miss her, but probably not enough so I don't feel guilty about being glad she's out of the house. Ah, the joys of younger siblings. Plus, I can't spend as much time out because then my mom would be alone in the house. Something she sometimes likes but overall doesn't really enjoy. And I have more chores.
So yeah. Mixed feelings.
Also, camp is taking up more of my summer than I thought it would. By the time I get dropped off (4:45 btw, not 4:30) I'm so tired all I want to do is sit around. But ah well. Tis worth it.
I love you all.
And weekends are pretty free. Saturdays I can usually get a ride into montpelier, if any of you want to arrange anything. I do want to keep in touch with people this summer by means other than the Internet.
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[04 Jun 2006|08:32pm] |
Us and Them
And after all we're only ordinary men
Me, and you
God only knows it's not what we would choose to do
Forward he cried from the rear
And the front rank died
The General sat, and the lines on the map
Moved from side to side
Black and Blue
And who knows which is which and who is who
Up and Down
And in the end it's only round and round and round
Haven't you heard it's a battle of words
The poster bearer cried
Listen son, said the man with the gun
There's room for you inside
Down and Out
It can't be helped but there's a lot of it about
With, without
And who'll deny it's what the fighting's all about
Out of the way, it's a busy day
I've got things on my mind
For want of the price of tea and a slice
The old man died
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| Hi people! |
[29 May 2006|10:42am] |
Wow, I haven't updated in... ages.
Everything's been so crazy lately.
My cousin Melanie from Maine visited yesterday. And she's really really cool. I hadn't seen her in years, and she's changed a lot. Which was slightly jawdropping. In a good way. And my sister was reading Angus Thongs and Full Frontal Snogging out loud and very rapidly, which was kind of funny.
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[15 May 2006|10:11pm] |
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So I asked him out and he said yes and I'm feeling good.
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| You have to love someone to understand them |
[13 May 2006|06:40pm] |
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But you don't have to understand them to love them.
So for anyone out there who's reading...
Alison's doing a lot better.
A LOT better. And a lot more centered. And more able to talk about things other than... him. Yes, it's true! Haha I can barely believe it myself.
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[09 May 2006|08:16pm] |
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My stomach is literally beginning to become nauseous from this rollercoaster of a week. And it's only Tuesday. I think. Yes.
I wish it was just that simple. But I'm confused about how I feel about him, I've just discovered a new band and lots of new songs I love, my mom's doing worse than she has in a while, my schedule is insane (good thing and a bad thing), I'm nervous about something (no idea what) and I'm having some of the best times of my life. I can't deal with this. And I need someone to hug and there's nobody there.
If tomorrow I randomly hug people more than usual, pleeeease bear with me... it's kind of an anchor. My brain's going just a little haywire.
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[07 May 2006|09:20pm] |
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The thing I like so much about love is I can feel it in so many ways.
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[30 Apr 2006|05:39pm] |
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Today I've spent a lot of time thinking. I went outside and just thought about the power of infatuated love. I think it's the most powerful feeling I've felt besides love. And that's not a good thing, because it is the power I'm trying to fight against. I hate being obsessive, and I need to stop. Plus, being caught up in an emotional drama sometimes makes me forget how happy I am right now. I really am happy. Probably the happiest I've ever been. And it's a good feeling to know that I'm happy partly because of efforts I've made to change the way I look at things, and the effort I made to love myself.
Today taking a walk I had one of those moments where who I am and who I want to be became the same person, and I like her. I wish I could be like her all the time.
But still, people are made to suffer. If there is nothing to suffer, we make up something.
And in my case it's infatuated love. For some reason I don't even want to stop liking him. No matter how much stress or pain it causes me. And for this reason, I can't even try to stop. The classic battle between mind and heart, only this time, I'm on the mind's side.
But it's such a perfect day to go outside and think.
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